The End

I first wrote in this blog in May, 2011. Now, two years later, this is my last entry.

“One day you are going to lose everything you have. Nothing will prepare you for that day. Not faith… not religion… nothing. When someone you love dies, you will know emptiness… you will know what it is to be completely and utterly alone.” — John Bergin, introduction to The Crow, Special Edition by James O’Barr.

I now understand that you never get over a loss like this. The pain fades, becomes less all-consuming, and it’s easier to remember the happy memories. But you never get over the loss; you have to accept it and make it part of you. I am ten times the person I was before I met Ailish and I would not trade a single moment I had with her.

This past weekend, I ran a 10K Run/Walk/Ride 4 Traffic Safety and then ran the Edmonton Police Foundation Half Marathon the next day (amusingly, they claim I’m in the 40 – 49 age category). It was a perfect way to end off the month. Ailish would have been proud. She also would have categorically refused to run two runs in a single weekend.

This blog has been a place for me to share stories from my life with Ailish. This was my place to talk about Ailish. For every story I told, a hundred people have a hundred stories of their own. Ailish was a central player in so many people’s lives. I’m not out of stories; there are still so many, but this is the last one I’ll tell here.

Thank you.

Heather Lawrence
April 30th, 2013 6:51 PM

Thank you for sharing Chris
I wish I had of had a chance to meet her but I’ve caught a glimpse of the woman who capture your heart.
I hope one day to hear more of your stories :0)

May 1st, 2013 4:16 AM

Thank you, Chris.

May 1st, 2013 12:57 PM


Your words and stories have been nothing short of inspirational. Thank you so much for everything that you’ve shared. My only sadness is not having known Ailish, but I hope her and I meet in heaven one day.

May 10th, 2013 8:54 PM

I’ve debated about posting on here before, but wasn’t too sure. I don’t know you, and never knew Ailish. However, the day that she died had an impact on my life and last month on the 20th I was thinking of what happened and found this blog. Reading the posts here and learning about who she was (such as a fellow Catan player), has given me some comfort. It also saddens me, knowing how much she is loved and missed.

My mom died in a car accident when i was 15, which was now 15 years ago, but to say that i know how you feel would be feels like it would be insensitive to your pain.

I don’t really know the point of this comment, or if there is a point. I just had a feeling too say something. And, for what it’s worth from a complete stranger, I hope you can find peace and healing.

Christopher Thompson
May 11th, 2013 6:17 AM

A, thank you very much for commenting here. Ailish was an excellent Catan player. :)

I’m sorry about your mother. I have read about several car accidents over the past couple of years and they always feel like a kick in the gut, particularly those involving pedestrians.

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