Last night, I had a dream about Ailish.

Ailish had committed some sort of crime. She was going to be charged and faced the possibility of a jail sentence. She was very distraught, both about the crime itself and about the charges. She was crying. I told Ailish that everything would be okay, we’d get through this together. And then I gave her a big hug.

And then I woke up. We won’t get through this together. But at least I got a hug from Ailish, if only in my dreams.